Facade

I'm strong, confident, I consider myself smart,
Yet when you do not reply, I am tearing apart.
Underneath the cool composure you have seen,
There is another insecure and scared side of me.
A side of me that is yearning for your approval,
A part that is wondering, am I annoying or dull?
A part that asks, do they hate this outer shell?
A part that wants just to be accepted as herself.
As long as this facade remains, I cannot be calm,
It is only a matter of time when you will be gone.
Through these lies you can finally see who I am,
In this darkness I am a person you cannot stand.
I know waiting for someone is not an easy task,
But if you have patience for me then I surely ask,
That I am given one chance so I can finally start,
To learn how I undo the chains around my heart.